Don't expect too much from me.

Because I have nothing to brag.

Seriously.

But I promise not to stop trying and learning.

That's all I could do.

Que Sera Sera

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

It’s like the whole world wide has already known from the very first that they were meant to be, but themselves.

And now, when the mirror let them see the truth, they can hide no more, they can run no more, but accepted wholeheartedly the fate that was written far before they were born.

It's you.

It was you.

It is always you.

I should’ve known this. I should've known.

Or perhaps, I actually always know.

Maybe, if we just stop looking too far and stop chasing something that we knew it’s out of our league, we would find it -whatever we’re looking for.

If you just only turn your back and come to where you have started for a moment just to see how far you’ve been travelling around, probably you gotta get your answer.

Because sometimes,

we may already get the answer in the very beginning. We were just not realized it yet. Because we had drowned by the adventurous spirit and blinded by the illusion of the perfect imagination we had created ourselves.

Sometimes, what you are looking for is actually there, always near you from the very beginning.

It's not my comfort zone at first. I struggled a lot to be there. Being outcast, left-behind, underestimated whatsoever were not problem for me anymore as I got it too often.
This struggling is finally coming to an end, I think. I get accepted. I am getting equal. And I feel like, I have found my place, my comfort zone.
But then it's getting too comfy that I forget why I am here. What is the very reason I am here.
Leaving the place where you just found you belong is never that easy even when it is the very choice you have left. But one needs improvement, right? Every choice has its own risk. And every better change needs at least a little sacrifice.
Am I ready for this?
Is this a good choice?
Whatsoever.
Once you have decided a thing, you have to be responsible about it. You have to give your one hundred percent. And forget the other option you have chosen not to choose.

You can't judge people by who they were two or four years ago
  You don't know what 'time' could bring
  Ydk how fast people could change

You can't judge pople by how their appearances, by how they looked back then

But sure you do can always consider those
As you too should first consider the way they think and act at the present time

What matter the most is now, for it can lead you to prepare a better future

You cannot change the past
But sure you can change for your future

You can buy a HOUSE, but not a HOME

You can buy a BED, but not SLEEP

You can get a POSITION, but not RESPECT

You can buy a CLOCK, but not TIME

You can buy a BOOK, but not KNOWLEDGE

You can buy BLOOD, but not LIFE

Find your HAPPINESS inside YOU

-Warren Buffet

Fall in

fall in love is truly exhausting.

All you think about is him (or her).

His name is somehow echoing in your head every single time.
You are unconsciously waiting the moment when you see him.
But when you finally saw him, you try so hard to condemn the temptation of saying ‘hi’ or whatever to him.

It’s so exhausting.

No wonder, being fall in love is making us, both a joyful kid and a walking zombie.

Maybe, Just a few days before, he was nowhere inside your head but then, now, he is kinda everywhere. It’s unbelievable.

Really, this shifted feeling is so torturing, depressing, exhausting yet mesmerizing.

Why shouldn’t you throw away the junk you have?

Been watched spongebob episode that tells about how he keep all the garbages because all that has each memory. All the items he deems has sentimental value. He is hoarding memory by keeping all that junk. So that his house becomes so full that he decided to save those garbages in the yard too. Until finally his house becomes too cramped for him to live in. Then, cleaning officer tells him to clean everything up or his house will be deceased. Halfheartedly, he cleans it up. Then, his house is free and everything is clean and be normal again.

(check out: Spongebob: Sentimental Sponge Episode)

Then, it reminds me of something. Sometimes, we really should let go of the memories, especially a memory that give no good to us but pain. We really do should move on. Keep a healthy life by letting go all that shit.

p.s. finally, spongebob teaches me something :p

never mind

Never mind people’s opinion.

Never mind how people stare at you.

Never mind if people talk shit behind you.

Never mind 'bout that.

The improvement of oneself is what matter.

women

What do women really want?
Sometimes they say no but it actually means yes,

in other time they say yes but it actually means no,

You know the top secret of women;
they have no idea themselves what they want
not even in between.

That truly is complicated.