January 1, 2012

it's two thousand and TWELVE!

apa TARGET perncapaian anda tahun ini? *bikin list*
(perbaiki dan perbaharui dream mapping yuk!)

Semoga kita selalu menjadi pribadi yg lebih baik setiap waktunyaa. (amin ya Rabbal alamin)

Have faith!

when you feel gloom, when you feel down, or feel like every single thing on the planet's conspiring to make your life like hell and just getting worse and worse, just hold yourself back, take a deep breath and give yourself time. there are only two things i know about solving problems: live it alone or see it to yourself first. don't push yourself too hard because there are things that one can barely handle by herself.

but then, i read...

{Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Dia mendapat (pahala) dari (kebajikan) yang dikerjakannya dan dia mendapat (siksa) dari (kejahatan) yang diperbuatnya. (Mereka berdoa), "Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami melakukan kesalahan. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebani kami dengan beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tidak sanggup kami memikulnya. Maafkanlah kami, ampunilah kami, dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah pelindung kami, maka tolonglah kami menghadapi orang-orang kafir.} (QS Al-Baqoroh: 286)

Have faith!

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 13)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 16)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 18)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 21)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 23)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 25)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 28)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 30)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 32)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 34)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 36)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 38)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 40)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 42)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 45)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 47)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 49)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 51)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 53)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 55)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 57)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 59)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 61)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 63)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 65)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 67)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 69)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 71)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 73)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 75)

{Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?} (QS. Ar-Rahman: 77)

Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan? Bersyukurlah!

note from June last year

just checking my diary and found something from June back then. that's quite something about someone from that time. but it's full with curses. bahahaha.
happy read!

hey you! what the h* crossing your f* little mind till you dare disturbing malife? you come and go as you like.

ya, ya, I know. I do understand that I just another bump in the road of your life but not big enough though to make you stop a little longer.

But I know, you see right through me when 'am staring at you. frozen by perfection like a stupid statue.

then you gave me smile that make me melted. I know it's not even your second-best smile. But it seems so f* perfect!

Take me up high.

But then like the pop of a toy gun, me realize that you in other girls' eyes are precisely you in my eye and feel the exact feeling like I feel right now.

You know exactly what to do with your gd* perfection.

and me? trapped between love and hatred. I definitely lose in you.

I wonder how it will end.

But you should know, I am a warrior, you know, kinda Amazon. and you don't have any idea how strong I am that you wrong think I'll give up easily on you.

What's the world for if you can't make it up the way you want it?

June 2010

P.S but in the end, I was not even trying to make him stop when he was about to leave.

HAPPY IDUL ADHA

SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL ADHA EVERYONE :)

SEMOGA SEMUA UMAT MUSLIM YANG SEDANG MENJALANKAN IBADAH HAJI DIBERIKAN KEKUATAN. MABRUR. dan bagi yang belum, semoga segera mendapat kesempatan. AMIN.

Puasa 'Arafah: 9 Zulhijjah

Puasa 'Arafah adalah puasa sunnah pada tanggal ke-9 Zulhijjah bagi mereka yg tidak melaksanakan ibadah Haji. Ia memiliki kelebihan yg dapat menghapuskan dosa-dosa setahun yg lalu dan setahun yang akan datang, sebagaimana disebutkan dalam sebuah hadist:

"Puasa Hari 'Arafah dapat menghapuskan dosa setahun yang lalu dan setahun yang akan datang." (HR. Muslim)

Menurut jumhur 'ulama, yang dimaksudkan adalah dosa-dosa kecil atau diringankannya dosa-dosa besar.
Tahun ini 2011 M/ 1432 H, puasa 'arafah jatuh pada tanggal 5 november 2011, sabtu.

Ayooo kita berpuasa :)

Pe eM eS

I feel so mellow and full of anger last couple days. and as usual, I come here to write when i feel so damn down. don't know exactly what happen.. just feel.. gloom.


Well, PMS can be one of the suspects. Guys will feel sick of this excuse, i guess, because girls often but not always use this excuse when they angry. but guys, you should know, this is not always fake.

Sindrom pra-menstruasi merupakan kumpulan gejala yang muncul antara 1 hingga 14 hari sebelum masa menstruasi dan biasanya berhenti saat menstruasi mulai. Gejala tersebut dapat meliputi keluhan fisiologis yang menyerang segala sistem tubuh maupun gejala psikologis yang mencetuskan masalah mental dan emosional. PMS terutama sering terjadi pada wanita dalam rentang usia kehamilan, yaitu antara 25 – 45 tahun. Persentase penderita PMS lebih tinggi pada wanita yang pernah melahirkan dan menggunakan pil KB. Kejelasan mengenai penyebab PMS belum diketahui secara pasti, namun ada hubungan dengan perubahan hormonal. Terjadi peningkatan hormon estrogen secara mendadak menyebabkan ketidakseimbangan hormon estrogen-progesteron dalam tubuh.

Tingkat keparahan dan keragaman gejala PMS bisa berbeda-beda pada setiap wanita yang menderitanya, dari gejala yang ringan hingga yang mengganggu dan parah. Keragaman gejala PMS dapat meliputi kombinasi berikut ini :

Gejala Psikologis : meliputi perubahan tingkah laku/personalitas seperti perasaan sensitif, mudah tersinggung atau marah, cemas, kegelisahan, gampang menangis, suasana hati tidak nyaman, kelelahan, defresi, iritabilitas, kurang percaya diri, gugup, bingung, sulit konsentrasi, gangguan tidur, perubahan napsu seksual.

Gejala Fisik : payudara terasa sakit dan membengkak, perut kembung, kram perut dan mual, sakit punggung, nyeri sendi, pegal dan leher tegang, sakit kepala, timbul jerawat, detak jantung tidak teratur dan berdebar-debar, sesak napas, diare atau sembelit, keranjingan makanan biasanya terhadap makanan asin/gurih dan manis.

But sometimes (in my case, mostly) someone doesn't need a single reason to feel gloom. it just comes out itself and leaves itself as well. As long as we want to stop it, it won't get any serious. ugh, what do i say at this early morning?

No Body Like Waiting ! Me Neither !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jealousy vs fool

Just realized people get hurt so easy in the way we've never thought about.

Sometimes we just can’t accept someone’s success, not because they don’t deserve it but only because we think that it is us who supposed to get what they get or even better. Is it jealousy or something?

And sometimes we become fool enough to understand what people surround think about what we get and become so reckless that we don’t know there are people getting hurt. Is it fool, innocent or something?

Then foolishly ask and complain.

I didn’t ask something happened. But it just happened.

Did I do something wrong? something on purpose?

Sincerely feel sorry for those who get hurt. And feel sorry for those who hurting.

You get tested by different way (only).

Homecoming :)

Mudik (homecoming) telah menjadi sebuah tradisi di Indonesia setiap tahunnya pada saat lebaran Idul fitri. Satu hal yang paling mencolok saat mudik adalah perubahan di kota Jakarta dari the busy-crowded city menjadi kota yang lengang dan sepi ditinggal most of its citizen ke berbagai kota dan desa diseluruh Indonesia. As the capital city of Indonesia, Jakarta menjadi daerah terpadat di Indonesia dengan penduduk yang terdiri dari berbagai macam warga berbeda suku dan budaya.

So, masyarakat Indonesia pastinya biasa dengan berita mudik besar-besaran ini selama lebaran. Biasanya mudik ini dilakukan seminggu sampai beberapa hari sebelum lebaran hingga seminggu sampai beberapa hari setelah lebaran. To do homecoming, there are some ways: by train, by plane, by ship, by bus, by private car, by travel-car, by motorcycle. The last one is popular lately dan semakin banyak saja setiap tahunnya.

What people most remember about homecoming: its heavy boring jam, its long and tiring journey, and its crowd. J

HAPPY EID FITRI 1432 H

Wow "Happy Eid Mubarok 1432 H" becomes trending topic on twitter whole night long.

I wanna say, Happy Eidul Fitri for all muslim. Minal aidin wal faidzin. Taqabballahu minna wamingkum :)
Semoga amal ibadah selama sebulan Ramadhan diterima Allah SWT. Amin

man and silent

Do’ya wanna hear a crazy sadness story? Here we go..

A young man is staring at a man that sits not far from him. He is a married man with a hardworking wife and an almost dozen kid. The wife works so hard that she forgets her own health. And the man does the same also. At least the boy thought so. He sits whole day on every single day on his comfy chair in front of a shiny flat screen busy with himself, working.. working.. working on searching a fresh new pretty girl to attract.

The boy just can’t understand why on earth a man would fain give up his entire almost-perfect life that he builds for long time from zero to a stranger-fancy girl. And he is becoming more confused when that man insists that what he feels is truly a love.

I bet he doesn’t really understand what love means.

The thought comes on his mind, will he be like that man in several years at the future? will he? He heard from his sister that terrible thing is what grown-up man likely do. Is that true?

That man talks to that boy to remain silent for the sake of the happiness of his family. But how could the terrible thing like that be such happiness to other? Ouch, adults are difficult to understand, said him.

D’y know? He feels totally pity on him.. on all his innocent family. But He pities himself the most.. because he can do nothing for them. He just can’t decide what is best. He can do nothing but silent unless he would ruin that pretty-happy family.

Ever heard aphorism that "Silent is Gold"? Then, IS silent still gold that way?

happy Ramadhan :)

lip-plates and big earlobe

Awalnya sih gak sengaja nyetel channel 003 (eh bener ga sih? lupa) yang sedang menayangkan Last Man Standing yang settingnya di East Africa tentang episod Ethiopian Suri Stick Fighting. Yaitu pertarungan menggunakan batang kayu kecil yang panjang tapi tidak mudah patah antara pria. Gak terlalu banyak aturan, mudah aja, cuma harus mukul kaki atau kepala lawan sampai berdarah dan you win. tapi kalo mukul bagian-bagian kecil seperti jari atau kuping, maka you lose. Tujuannya untuk mendapatkan perempuan dan menunjukkan kejantanan.

Bukan program acaranya yang mau saya bahas. tapi budaya native east African nya. karena hal itu lah yang membuat saya tercengang-cengang saat menontonnya.

Hal pertama yang membuat saya tercengang adalah ukuran lower lip para perempuannya. besaaaar. big lower lip ini dikenal dengan lip plates karena memang menggunakan piring atau tutup kaleng atau semacamnya untuk membuatnya besar. Dan semakin besar bibir itu terlihat, semakin cantik bagi mereka. dan semakin besar ukurannya setelah menikah, maka semakin banyak pula yang akan dibayarkan suaminya untuk mereka. Kalau plates-nya dilepas, bibir bagian tengahnya terlepas dari dagu, menggantung. Bahkan yang lebih ekstrem-nya lagi, ada juga budaya yang kedua bibirnya ,menggunakan plates atas maupun bawah.

Begitu ditanya apakah itu sakit, mereka mengatakan bahwa ya, memang itu sangat menyakitkan tapi inilah yang mereka inginkan karena leluhur mereka juga melakukan hal yang sama. Bahkan mereka sendiri tahu bahwa apa yang mereka lakukan itu aneh. But it's simply because their custom.

Kedua, big ear lobe. Sebenernya sih pernah liat juga anak punk di pasar minggu yang earlobe-nya seperti itu. tapi gak nyangka juga kalau ternyata itu adalah budaya nun dibelahan lain dunia sana. Alasannya sih gak jauh beda dengan bibir tadi. Bedanya, gak hanya perempuan yang melakukan hal ini tapi juga pria-nya.

That's what I called 'beauty is pain'. Lihat perjuangan dan pengorbanan para perempuan untuk mendapatkan label kecantikan itu pada dirinya.

Selain itu masih ada tanda lukis yang dibuat dibadan menggunakan silet. aiiih, agak-agak merinding sih ngeliatnya. Tapi selalu menarik buat saya untuk melihat keunikan macam-macam budaya yang ada di dunia, terlebih yang ekstrim seperti itu.

Sekedar berbagi :)

for more information about lip-plates and for Ethiopian Suri Stick Fighting

Kim Soo Hyun Forever *wink*

Suddenly feel missing Kim Soo Hyun a lot. It's already been 3 months since I saw him first time on his drama "Dream High". Then I got sudden in love with him soon after his first appearance on that film.
 

Comprendo? See, how beautiful he is. moreover, he really do good at sing. Check this out:

I happen to love SooHyun and Suzy's "Maybe" that was first popularized by Wonder Girl's Sunye. His voice is extremely good. He'd better be a singer, I think.

Just looking at his videos or listening his songs, makes a curve on my face. smiling :)
hehe that's all for me. postingan galau iseng tengah malam :p

one subject which uses word as its power

A bit shocked when reading The Ecocriticism Reader a while ago, right on Rueckert's Literature and Ecology. He's mumbling about something that was (and maybe still) on my mind. He says,

... we live by the word, and by the power of the word, but are increasingly powerless to act upon the word. Real power in our time is political, economic, and technological; real knowledge is increasingly scientific. Are we not here at the center of it all? We can race our verbal motors, spin our dialectical wheels, build more and more sophisticated systems, recycle dazzling ideas through the elite of the profession. ... In the end, we wonder what it all comes down to.

Not to mention and consider the rest of his essay, but this is the part I remember the most from all essays I've read on that interesting book. This totally startling me because it is William Rueckert, a prominent ecocritic; a theorist, who says that. He has the same thought as mine. I do feel the same, prof.

What do you expect for taking this major? What you gonna do after graduation? What do you want to be in the future? What kind of job this major lead you to? That's the common questions laity ask you when you're declaring to take 'literature' course at the first time. and It's not just a few of you that confusing how should to answer that kind of questions. These are overwhelming questions.

When a fellow asked you 'on what major are you?' then you answered 'literature,' and she said 'oh.' Then the same fellow asked your other fellow the same question and she answered 'medicines,' and she said 'wow.' How remarkable the difference attitude you've got. What a pity. They just don't know yet how amazing literature is.

But I, myself, don't really care about that. You know, counting is painful. I just realize that it's not my stuff. I do enjoy literature. That's the most important thing for now. If we do what we wish and desire to do, then it will bring better result than when we force ourselves to do. Then we just don't need to worry about next. Do best to make it best.

Plant best, harvest best :)

(I'm) Addicted

First you start it, hard you stop it.

Facebook is changing its function lately for me. I'm not using it as a media like I used to use it before (connecting friend, sharing ideas and feelings but it still the best for sharing pictures, chatting, and even doing business). For me, now, it's a place for gaming since it has so many kind of interesting games.

But this new attitudes (I don't know why and how) are bothering others (they implied). They give me some advices (at least they think they are) to stop it. I love it, at first, because it means that they were care about me, right? But it becomes disturbing when it happens over and over again.

It's like; hey please! Just don’t! Don't forbid me do a thing I like! Just don’t! See, I don’t urge you into something you hate or even bothering you about what you wanna do. So please, don't!

Well, my excuse is never working. So, I am gonna take another way. I'll make you understand. I'll introduce you to them. I'll bring you there. Then I'll make you come to join. *devilsmile~

I called it as the place where i escape from the real world.

Let's start with this one, Ninja Saga. Here is where I as ninja do some missions and get reward. The right pict is my ninja village and the left is my avatar (which one better huh?). Well i'm not really a good ninja and i'm playing honestly, no cheat, no token. That's why i'm moving extremely slow. Beside i play periodically. Water and fire is my elements. I'm still a chunin - senior chunin, i'll say - because i'm going to the next test level to become a jounin. Believe it, there is exam for ninjas!

 

Then, this one: Baking Life, where i find myself as a baker and have my own bakery, managing it and have employees. I am an unbelievable baker now at the level 79. But the picture is not my bakery, it's my sister's actually. I don't know why the connection is so bad right now that I can't take a copy of my own bakery. But trust me, it's much better than that one. hehe (right sist? *piercingather)

(I finally can upload mine. This one is prettier right? kekeke)

The third is Cityville where I can build my own town (I named it: wonderland town). This is interesting, too. I have my own zoo, hospital, farm, shops, station, land, etc. I think this game is the one which need more time to load. See, tonight I can't take a copy of my town :(

This one is the latest game I join after my lil brother urged me to join him and play so that he has a friend to play with in home. It's not much different from the previous game, Cityville. They share rules except in Mini Kings we have to fight and protect our kingdom. I have my own troops, see. That is the pict of my small-developing-kingdom.

Well I have many other (Pet Society, Farmville, It girls, etc) but better I'll stop here.

Hope you can see how much it means to me (✿◠‿◠)

brain and ability (feeling down)

Human brains are more complex than the brains of any animal on earth because it's larger and heavier and blablablabla.

Human brain is all the same, that's what we know. But (in my opinion - and i do believe it is) Its capability is totally different. There are a genius, a standard people, and even a born-to-be-Idiot people. Don't try to convince me with the nonsense-talk about 'it's depend on how you train your own brain'. such a nonsense for me.

The born-to-be-idiot, that of course has no ability, will never ever be able to, at least, match the ability of the lazy-genius one. How matter hard he try.

haaaffhhh!!!!

I'm feeling uneasy. I am feeling down. Down. Down.

what a day!

What a day!

What on earth was wrong between me and Friday in campus?? Bad luck comes regularly every time I go to campus on Friday (or it’s me who too exaggerated it). Once a time, on the way to campus for attending a class, a little girl vomited right next to me and successly soaked me up. Today (???) was like the movie I just saw.

You know how it is, a day where everything's going wrong? That today is this day. – Ian Stone

“Live Every Day Like It’s Your Last”

It is an interesting movie. Ian Stone, a guy who is murdered each day by horrifying pursuers, only to wake up in slightly different lives to experience the terror of being murdered again.

I do like this kind of film, not because of its horror, but rather because it makes viewers think a lil harder. It needs certain intelligent to get into the movie . . . ㅋㅋㅋ . . ( •̃͡ -̮ •̃͡)

mmm.. I am not going to make review, anyway.

The thing that I, personally, conclude about this film is simple :: “even LOVE can turn devil into human” #thePowerOfLove ♥ ♥ ♥

coming back

setelah lama lama dan lama terbengkelai karena lupa password (beserta email-nya) akhirnya sekarang bisa connect lagi ke blog. #apasih meracau deh omongannya??. tadinya pengen ganti blog tapi bingung, maklum orang linglung.

dan ini adalah postingan absurd yang gak jelas kemana tujuannya. seperti juga penulis yang mulai kehilangan arah menentukan kemana tujuan blog ini. #labil